just ignore me…

Procrastination is the bane of my “existence”. I guess it’s a classic ADHD symptom, but I take medication for that and it does nothing. That’s why my house is always a mess. I have packages to return to Amazon that have been sitting here for a week and a half. All I need to do Continue reading

I did not sleep much last night, maybe two hours at the most. My mind was racing, trying to remember so many things that I’ve forgotten. I can’t stop thinking about the past, the things I missed while immersed in my teenage narcissism; overreactions, shutting people out, not thinking clearly about ANYTHING. There are other Continue reading

Adam is moody today. The weather has been nice lately, exactly the same every day for over a week. We have been walking to school every day since school started in order to get our weight down. This morning was “Fathers Walk Their Kids to School Day” or some shit. Interestingly, there is no “Mothers Continue reading

Well it certainly has been an interesting year. Continue reading

Holy crap…the world is certainly full of stupid people. Sadly, many of these people have somehow managed to graduate from college- just goes to show you the value of a college education these days. When I went to college, there was a pretty fair division between smart people and stupid people. The stupid people always Continue reading

Fallen into the Snow White circles Of darkness, Outlasting the daytime This time, I shall begin the new diary on a positive note, because for the first time in weeks I feel truly good. Things are looking up for a change, and not necessarily from an ignorant, pseudo-optimistic stemmed from naitivity. No, instead, it’s from Continue reading

I don’t really belong anywhere. Tonight I felt this way after going out with the “usual gang”. I’m not one of them. I also see Sonja – I don’t belong with her either. She spends her time with Marq. What can I do? I have no purpose. I have nothing to look forward to. I Continue reading

I’ve always had this sort of image I’ve wanted to show everyone – being mysterious, reclusive, wise…that sort of thing. I must’ve seen it on a movie once or something. All the time, that image lies in the back of my mind forever, until I start to believe that this is what I am. I Continue reading

We got our class rings today – mine’s gold with black onyx and I must say it suits me. It’s not pure gold because that looks gaudy, but the metal is a real dull, yellowish-brown light gold that enhances the onyx. Anyway, I met this Larry guy at Kresse’s on Monday. I met him once Continue reading

Stupid. Sometimes I’m so stupid. This weekend was funny. I didn’t end up going out with that Don guy, but I did have a fun Friday. I slept over at Robin’s – she threw a party since Marlene and Steve we gone. We started at the mall, and guess who I saw there? MATT MUELLER! Continue reading