just ignore me…

Kevin and I got to see each other last night. I love the way he is. It’s so nice to be needed. Continue reading

Went out with the old gang tonight – it was the BEST. The best thing that’s happened to me in a long long LONG time! We did whippets (I’d never tried them before). What a fucking trip. They are great but I felt like shit afterwards. My lungs did anyway. Brian MacKenzie’s house burned down Continue reading

Ya know, talking to Zak tonight after the football game, I realized just how unimportant love really is. I can go on without it. I can survive without a companion. And who really cares about anyone else? I don’t. I really don’t, and I’ll tell you – I’m GLAD. I don’t care! I’M GLAD! Continue reading

Kevin is a psycho. He’s definitely not all there. He scares me. He scares me, but…something about him. I’m listening to Shriekback right now. The song I’m listening to, The Only Thing That Shines, is scary. I never know what to do. Windy, windy, windy. It is so windy. Continue reading

Ha ha! I wonder how Matt enjoyed Circle Jerks? Sonja and I went to West Geauga after school. I guess she thought there was a game, or maybe she wanted to see Eric…there was some confusion about the whole mess but it resulted in us being there from 4:00pm until 5:45pm. Anyway, we met this Continue reading

More conflicts but I’m learning to ignore them now. Chris and Matt and Sonja, then Matt and Sonja and Paul…then there’s little old me. Sonja’s a liar. She keeps on lying. Quite the compulsive liar. Romance is never, but that really isn’t getting me down (at least on the surface). Remorse and disappointment, they’re on Continue reading

I am bitter, very bitter these days. Nothing is going right and I seem to be wandering on and on. I am also so very sick of taking the same crap day in and day out. No one ever leaves me alone. So many conflicts. Everyone creating scandals and then I find myself dragged into Continue reading

The week has passed and again I’ve failed to fill you in on the happenings. Well, nothing much has happened. Had a few sexually charged moments at Drama as usual. That’s nothing new. Sonja’s mother supposedly found some pills and immediately blamed them on Sonja. Now they plan to take her to get blood tests, Continue reading

Is it the 21st or the 23rd? I’ll change the date. Sid and Nancy. That movie really moved me. I want to cry for them – I can’t explain it. Their whole situation, their whole outlook, the era even – it makes me think about things, and about life. I wish I could just go Continue reading

I should calm myself. Take a pill. Stress. Everything is so stressful. Tomorrow I’ve got three tests, one in each of my three worst classes (meaning the ones I have to work at to get A’s). Biology, French and Algebra. It just doesn’t seem very fair. PLUS! I didn’t come home AT ALL until 9:00pm. Continue reading